Holding On to God

 ^{Philipians 4:4-4:9}

 ⁴Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

    ⁸Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. ⁹Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

CONTRACT WITH MYSELF FOR MYSELF:
This is a Contract With Myself for Myself:

* I am going to release my past and forgive myself of making mistakes and being human…after all God has forgiven me and focusing on the past and mistakes does nothing but hinder one from moving forward!!

* I am going to focus my life back onto God! Im ready to do things his way and not my own way. Part of this will be attending church and reading my bible.

* I am NOT going to be dating anyone for at LEAST 6 months maybe even longer. This time needs to be for me!

* I NOT going to drink anymore period, this will most likely meen not going anywhere that serves alcohol but that is fine! Drinking has done nothing but cause me to make horrible mistakes and it needs to end now!

* I am going to make some better friends for myself who influence me in good ways and support me as a person!

* I am going to start riding horses again even if I must kick myself in the butt to do it.

* I am going to continue painting as well as doing things which are good habits that produce possitive results in my life!

* I am going to stick by these rules no matter what happens[u] and [u]continue to make better choices for myself as time goes on.

I PROMISE THESE THINGS TO MYSELF AND TO GOD! God help me every step of the way and re-direct me if I fall off the path you want for me.

“Dear God,
Thank you so much for all you have done for me, I am so sorry for turning my face from you and what I have known to be best for me through you! I relise I have hurt myself in many ways by doing this. I am coming home to you, I know you have always been waiting and Im sorry you had to see me do such distructive things in my life. I have seen you in my life and the lives of others many times. I never doubted you, though I feel I did ignore you. Please forgive me…as I know you will. I am handing my life back over to you…I can not do this on my own and I am tired of trying. Please lead me and heal me and help me create a new life for myself. I love you so much. Thank you for not giving up on me even when I gave up on myself.
-Your Child”

I will be posting on the topic of eating healthy, recipes, suppliments, and eventually logging the food I eat daily in the Food Log section. This section may not be of a lot of interest for others but it is here to assist in my journey

I have been diagnosed with major depression and anxiety. It wasnt very long ago that these things completely took over my life but I have since gotten on medication and started receiving support from the online community. I also blog and post on one other site…for about 2 months or so now so Im not sure how often I will be able to blog on this one too. I will just have to wait and see if I have time for two blogs but as far as the forums go…I should have no problem being active with both. I have not played with the settings on this blog enough to know how to restrict the access where only members can view what I post so until I do that I will not be posting anything that is very personal. I have so far enjoyed this site although it does seem a bit harder to get support when you are new. Maybe this is because a lot of people join and post only a couple times before leaving? In any case I do plan to stay so hopefully it will get better once people relise that Im going to be around and get to know me a bit. I look forward to gaining some new support buddies. ~Peace